One Day at a Time.

My sexy and smart girlfriends always tell me "You're losing your dignity" when it comes to this; SINFUL DELIGHT. They remind me of how ladies should be treated. Hmm..

The scenario is still that same story of a guy holding down a girl who he knows is faithful to him. The guy with the greed abuses the girl's attachment to him that he doesn't care about how she's hurt or even if she's all broken. With all the shit that he's been doing, the girl remains patient though she perfectly knows how stupid this lust affair is.

You all have read it and heard it.. The girl is ME.

A lot of letting go attempts were made. He and I both tried to part ways but everytime we get this chance to somewhat start over, we end up hating us together. It's a cycle of breaking up and getting back for over 1 and a half years now. Of course, he's good with the getting back part but he's even better with the breaking up. That means I don't think he really cares. He's got his weird reasons for keeping me on the wait list. I'm aware of what an asshole he could be and my excuse for staying was he could be the man who so-called "loved" me again like our 1st few months together.

My goodness. I was 17 when I was crying buckets of tears for this guy. I was 18 when I learned how to play his game and NOW THAT I AM 19...

THINGS CHANGE :) Sure he's still the man who holds me but taking it one day at time would mean long 24 hours a day BUT easy. Easier than pretending it's totally over.

We'll see where this goes now that we know there's no fairytale ending.

Just wish me luck!

Oh boys, I'm not getting committed to anyone again unless im 100% over him. You can either wait or leave. Your call anyway. I can love just my sexy friends :P

A body for nobody.

Learning ballet at a young age with diff. kinds of dancemates made me vain and even more as each year goes. I was already very conscious of how my figure looks. The ideal body for me is from slim to skinny. A little weight for being 'chubby' is never an option for me. It scares me not to be able to literally carry myself with extra weight.

The best year of sexiness for me was in 2007. That was the year that started out bad and ended even worse than I expected. There were helpful factors that made me slim down to being skinny but extremely sexy :) 1st there was stress. Like any other dramatic girl, I was waiting for the next guy. When I got my next guy, who happens to be sexy too, the 2nd factor comes in. Pressure. He's the typical boyfriend who'd leave me if I'd lose the heat. With both heart-crushing, body-shaping factors, I was sexy or at least people say so.

NOW. I've been single for almost a year with no man being able to stand my bitching while dating, I'm slowly gaining weight. Even though I'm too stressed right now with all the little issues people have against me, I still start to become fat. I look in the mirror and see myself round :)) I tend to over-react about it because I hate it.

No worries. I'm cool.. I just need to find reason for working out and heating up. My ex will come back soon and it's not enough motivation for me. So yeah, I need a man. But this doesn't mean that I'd sleep around like other girls there or find me a 'distraction' like what some weak guys do after a loss. That's perfectly being pathetic. Grow up boy!

I NEED YOU TO CONTROL ME.
My kind of man is not someone who will be under my manipulative personality. I want a man who's man enough to make demands, stand my bitching, and of course, a man who believes me. I want a man who won't give up over a distraction or threat. Real men don't just say they're mature enough. Control me :) Then I'm all yours.

Don't STOP.

All you have to say is you want me.. I'm yours. Stay.

This is cheeeeesy sweet :) Read it. Feel it. Love it. Say it.

SPONGEBOB: What do you usually do when I'm gone?
PATRICK: Nothing. Just waiting for you to come back.

See what I mean? Aww. Imagine that it was a guy asking a girl. Hahaha! I'm bored :p

TICK TOCK.

BOYS MAKE GOOD FRIENDS-- NOT BOYFRIENDS. I got that idea from an old friend's text message and that is sooo true for my generation. We can rarely meet guys who are worth giving everyhing. Forget about the love shit that makes us weak. Taking it practically, a lot of guys are not worth the time. Not worth thinking of, worrying about, and talking about. They're the kind who'd just pass us by.

Few can stand the pride of women like me and most end up on the same line of GUESTS. Why 'guests'? It's simply because they are those who come and go. They come wanting to fuck and they leave if they can't get any piece of me with too much to confuse them :)) Weak assholes make me feel like I can make a better man of whatever best they say they have! That is why I am bored.

Don't complain about this huge change I've put up after what I had with Dennis. He's the lucky star who crashed on me and made me learn a lot of good things through a great deal of pain. After all the lust with a little sprinkle of so-called love, I don't plan to make another mistake of giving half of my life to a man who can't be tougher than how fearless I am.

HE MUST HAVE ALL OF THE FOLLOWING:

- height of a baller
- face of a real hottie
- excellent driving skills
- understands good english
- speaks sensible english
- eats at itallian restaurants
- watches horror movies
- great at any ball sport
- a pair of listening ears
- taste for women's fashion
- knuckle for bad beating
- heart of a brave warrior
- TIME TO WASTE FOR ME & MY DAILY BITCHING.

This may confuse you but I AM WAITING. Get your ass back here before I get too bored to even want to make things work out with you. I've been nice enough to sit here and wait. Be fast.

Books Before Boys.

I learned about that in high school but I didn't really think it's anything close to possible. Knowing me, I wouldn't want to miss the chance of having someone I like because I rarely encounter guys who meet my demands. Well, what the hell. Looks like it's indeed BOOKS BEFORE BOYS!

BOY 1 - The guy I truly think is blessed with a face with so much value! More than the boy next door appeal, he's all the hot kind that my type could possible court. He and I dated for a couple of times and that was that. Nothing extra like becoming exclusive. There is this chemistry but a lot came up that really made us lose time and interest for eachother. Boo!

BOY 2 - He's no longer a boy because he's an adult by age and he's a friend of mine who I enjoyed flirting with. We had this really short summer 'something' and it was JUST fun. It's nothing seriously at all. Like all playful things it ended without hard feelings and we end up like we're just 1st name-basis kind of friends.

BOY 3 - Too good to be true. I was seeing this really cute guy and he seems to be worth the time. He's strangely the perfect gentleman who opens doors, pays the bills, and greets you mornings. I always thought there's something wrong about his sweetness and I was right. He's just a boy; an underage who tried hard to look like a man. I must admit, he played it pretty well. Of course I'm not into dating kids so we're just friends and nothing more will ever come.

Whoa. I had all those 3 almost-there kind of relationships just this year and none of them worked. No act of desperation was done because it's very obvious that they're NOT for me and insisting my wants would just ruin the little friendship I have with them. Besides, there are even more guys to look out for ;) Like what they say, "Girls never run out of options".

Right now, I'm keeping myself busy. I have no choice but to find fun in something else, right? Haha. So I'm back to WORKING OUT. I want to bring back my abs :p Soon I'll be buying new tops to show off. Well, that is IF I get to regain that kind of fitness. SCHOOL is also on top. I'm taking review classes for college and I do pray for them to work and help me pass the PEP Test tomorrow!!

LET'S DRINK THE BOREDOM AWAY :) Cheers to being sexy and single. LOL.

BITCHES OF THE SAME F*CKERS HAVE THE SAME SLUTTISH MOTHER
Brilliant huh? I made that myself! What inspired me to come up with such touching quote are the women who currently terrorize my life for I happen to be someone different from them. They are cold blooded sluts of nature who hate wild but clean girls like me. Tsk!

Here's are the candidates:

1. Cover Girl - She has the looks of a model. She can be a sweetheart to your eyes but touch her not for she has the body of a repeatedly used young woman. During the start of her beauty reign, she was naive about things that involve physical dirt. Her slut machine carrier began when she realized how hot she is in the eyes of a lot of men. Oh yes, she is HOT when she was still a Maria Clara! Hahaha!

2. White Kitty - This one is a young, innocent but wild teen. Unfortunately, according to my very reliable sources, she is with child. For those who didn't get that-- she's pregnant! That's unfortunate news because her game has just begun. She just started to play with fire not too long ago. She's the QUICK kind. Bring her anywhere dark and you can go for the gold. Too bad now, someone has already reached the top

3. Drama Queen - An expert during her early teens, a helicopter in her mid teens, and currently an open goal to every man. Yes, she is indeed every slut's idol. You can tell of her being sluttish even at 1st look. Her whole skinny body's sagging! Anyway, the Drama Queen title is hers because she can cry her lungs out whenever she has to prove a point. She's the best but smelly plastic pussy every created.

The winner is *drum roll please*-- #3 Drama Queen!
--She would like to thank all the men she's slept with, the pussies who help her out, the family she has who denies the obvious fact that she's full of f*ck, and last but not the least, she would like to thank herself for working very hard to become that EXPERIENCED PERSON.

Whew! I needed to write all those to lose the burden of being hated by people I do not really care about. The last candidate, Drama Queen, is one hell of a bitch. She's the kind of thorn that won't get off your skin simply because she wants to become you or even better. I'm not supposed to think about her this much but what the hell. She's the best backstabbing coward in the world who can't handle fighting me face to face. That part I understand. I mean how can she go against a human when the face she carries is of a horse'?! Now darling that's sooo sad.

What doesn't kill me can only make me stronger. If you plan to cut me, be sure you kill me because I hit back best when I'm fresh from recovery. That has been tried and tested by many and believe me-- they hate me for all eternity. *Awe.. I'm good. It rhymes! Haha

Enjoying the cake from my babe Thanks for the sweets!

Stolen shot by OliBEAR

 

Baby Clarence.

UPDATE.

My most recent post before this is still something I can somehow relate to. Good news is, there's no more intimate night and totally NO BOYS to bother me :) I am super single.

What keeps me busy? Here they are..

They are those who enlighten my extra hot and extra BORING summer vacation. Boohoo. Having no beer sessions, smoke sessions, and parties really make me feel damned. Of course, it's always fun to babysit such brilliant little angels and it's never a wasted time to talk all day with friends :D

I NEED A HERO.

Where can I see him and when will he save me? Hmm.

Looking back 8 years ago, I see myself as someone who understands relationships like fairytales. Love stories always had happy endings and 3rd parties either end up gone or happy too. But seeing things now, as an adult by age, relationships aren't anything close to being the ones I read in colorful books.

"It's challenging" according to some boys who call themselves men. So is it a game?

We all know how the cycle often goes. The guy sees the girl. He then 'falls' for her at first sight or because of something more meaningful that mere sight. Since he has 'fallen', he'd make his move through courtship. Most girls would make the guys wait before giving in but some won't care about waiting and immediately say yes. After being an official couple, there is where the game begins. The challenge is to keep the relationship as healthy and happy as it could be. But what are its rules?

Rules (I learned by bitter experience):

1. LIARS GO TO HELL. You shouldn't lie about anything your partner wishes to know. Every answer requires 100% truth in it and every single lie you make adds up to your list of mistakes that could possibly cause a break up.
2. FULL SUPPORT. You must be the 1st person to be there for your partner both in good times and bad times. Your presence in every important event makes you a part of such meaningful memory. Absence sometimes lessens the affection due to lack of attention.
3. CHEATERS NEVER WIN. You can never ever love two persons at the same time or at least not with the same amount of love. Either way, it's wrong emotionally and physically. Most cheaters that were loved by extremely serious people end up being far more broken than the ones they toyed. *You could call that karma.

Speaking of cheating, what do you call the ones who steal your partner? Yes, 3rd parties. 3rd parties aren't as cool as the sexy nights of dancing you do with your partner or friends. 3rd parties are highly confidence wrecking. He or she can be a part of a 3rd party as long he or she knows that the person they are getting involved with has already committed to someone else. They could be considered mindless, heartless, or hopeless but we mustn't judge them because anyone could make that mistake-- even I.

SITUATION: Your ex boyfriend is exclusively dating someone new. He also announced the new girlfriend's presence in his life and you are now clearly the ex girlfriend until he suddenly comes back. He came back asking for one night only. Being the stuck-in-the-past ex girlfriend, you give into his needs though you know that he's already taken by someone else.
QUESTION: Does that make you the mistress though you were part of his past, a past that you got before the new girl?

Relationships are really twisted in many different angles. My advice; learn the game you're signing up for because you might not be able to handle the loss you are about to face and more often than not, you are most likely to be alone at the end of the day.

Pambata Basketball League Champions: Fafi Boys
Emperador Cup Champions: Probinsyano

Pambata Basketball League
Finals MVP: Gio
Season MVP: Ichang

Emperador Cup
Finals MVP: *i forgot his name :)
Season MVP: Dennis

"We cheer for team Probinsyano." :))

 

Team Maestro (Paolo, Mac, Wendel, Dom, and Joan)

 

Bryan's moment w/ his Probinsyano mates

 

for all the WINNERS :D

 

"MY Cortez" taking a time out

 

Mythical Five

 

Don, Mac, Dennis, Kuya Ryan, and Dom

 

3rd place - Dalubhasa

 

2nd place - Maestro

 

Emperador Cup Champions - Probinsyano

 

Dennis wins this season's MVP award :)

 

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