One Day at a Time.

My sexy and smart girlfriends always tell me "You're losing your dignity" when it comes to this; SINFUL DELIGHT. They remind me of how ladies should be treated. Hmm..

The scenario is still that same story of a guy holding down a girl who he knows is faithful to him. The guy with the greed abuses the girl's attachment to him that he doesn't care about how she's hurt or even if she's all broken. With all the shit that he's been doing, the girl remains patient though she perfectly knows how stupid this lust affair is.

You all have read it and heard it.. The girl is ME.

A lot of letting go attempts were made. He and I both tried to part ways but everytime we get this chance to somewhat start over, we end up hating us together. It's a cycle of breaking up and getting back for over 1 and a half years now. Of course, he's good with the getting back part but he's even better with the breaking up. That means I don't think he really cares. He's got his weird reasons for keeping me on the wait list. I'm aware of what an asshole he could be and my excuse for staying was he could be the man who so-called "loved" me again like our 1st few months together.

My goodness. I was 17 when I was crying buckets of tears for this guy. I was 18 when I learned how to play his game and NOW THAT I AM 19...

THINGS CHANGE :) Sure he's still the man who holds me but taking it one day at time would mean long 24 hours a day BUT easy. Easier than pretending it's totally over.

We'll see where this goes now that we know there's no fairytale ending.

Just wish me luck!

Oh boys, I'm not getting committed to anyone again unless im 100% over him. You can either wait or leave. Your call anyway. I can love just my sexy friends :P