A body for nobody.

Learning ballet at a young age with diff. kinds of dancemates made me vain and even more as each year goes. I was already very conscious of how my figure looks. The ideal body for me is from slim to skinny. A little weight for being 'chubby' is never an option for me. It scares me not to be able to literally carry myself with extra weight.

The best year of sexiness for me was in 2007. That was the year that started out bad and ended even worse than I expected. There were helpful factors that made me slim down to being skinny but extremely sexy :) 1st there was stress. Like any other dramatic girl, I was waiting for the next guy. When I got my next guy, who happens to be sexy too, the 2nd factor comes in. Pressure. He's the typical boyfriend who'd leave me if I'd lose the heat. With both heart-crushing, body-shaping factors, I was sexy or at least people say so.

NOW. I've been single for almost a year with no man being able to stand my bitching while dating, I'm slowly gaining weight. Even though I'm too stressed right now with all the little issues people have against me, I still start to become fat. I look in the mirror and see myself round :)) I tend to over-react about it because I hate it.

No worries. I'm cool.. I just need to find reason for working out and heating up. My ex will come back soon and it's not enough motivation for me. So yeah, I need a man. But this doesn't mean that I'd sleep around like other girls there or find me a 'distraction' like what some weak guys do after a loss. That's perfectly being pathetic. Grow up boy!

I NEED YOU TO CONTROL ME.
My kind of man is not someone who will be under my manipulative personality. I want a man who's man enough to make demands, stand my bitching, and of course, a man who believes me. I want a man who won't give up over a distraction or threat. Real men don't just say they're mature enough. Control me :) Then I'm all yours.